How is it possible to feel so lonely when I am always surrounded by people. Is it because everything I feel or have to say is never heard? Is it because it somehow became my job to listen and not speak. I have no voice. I can't have feelings or emotion. It's not allowed. How can I be the only one who hears my thoughts and feelings and not become a recluse or become withdrawn? I don't want to become the weird person who never looks up or looks people in the eye, too insecure to hold a normal conversation or treat it as a business situation. So impersonal and exact to the fact. I'm going crazy and the more I feel it the less I can talk about it.
Spare everyone else's feelings. That's more important I guess.
