Tuesday, October 30, 2007

NO MORE

SOMEONE, SOMETHING SAVE ME. GOD GIVE ME STRENGTH. I AM BARELY HOLDING ON TO WHAT IT WAS I WANTED. MY HEART FEELS LIKE THERES A DARK SWARM OF SMALL INSECTS LIVING INSIDE OF IT, EATING AND TEARING AT EVERY FIBER. GOD GIVE ME MORE TO GIVE. PLEASE, BECAUSE I FEEL LIKE I'M RUNNING OUT. OUT OF TIME, OUT OF LOVE, OUT OF FEELINGS. I'M BECOMING NUMB. FORCING BACK THE TEARS. FORCING MYSELF TO BE STRONG. I JUST EXIST, I'M JUST EXISTING. DAY BY DAY. I'M JUST EXISTING. I WANT TO BREAK DOWN, I WANT TO FALL APART. I CAN'T. I'M SO ALONE. I'M SO DRY, SO LIMP. DAY BY DAY. SO ALONE.

1 comment:

Ninja Mama said...

Oh, my heart breaks. I feel like this was written by me. Perhaps my alter ego is parading around under the guise, "under the cover."
I know exactly how you are feeling. Its almost scary how well I know.

If you want someone to talk to, my email is sarahiwata at gmail.com

I am truly sorry for your hurt. I know it all too well...